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Not Dying Fast Enough...

Sun Mar 29, 2009, 2:19 PM

Mood: Emotional
Listening to: the screaming in my head
Reading: nothing
Watching: my happy place catch fire
Playing: hide and shriek with my nightmares
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing

I hate my life...if you can even call it a life...I simply am...all I want to do right now is curl up in a little cave and dissappear...I want to fade away into the sweet sweet nothingness of oblivion. but I cant do that...no one will let me fade away...no matter how much I want to effing die no one will let me...so here I am, trapped in my own personal hell, in love with someone who doesn't feel the same...she can move on and I cant...she had moved on and then I went a fucked things up yet again...thats all I seem to be good for lately...screwing up...now I'm this...sad pathetic tag along...I don't want to keep her from being happy...I hate that I get like this...its just making things harder on her...I'm used to suffering...I'm starting to think thats my normal state unfortunately...she should be happy...you know who you are...dont tell me everythings ok...I know you broke up with him because I was upset...anyways...I'm done venting now...no one needs to reply and dont worry about me...I'm about as good as I get...

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~Boomer343 Mar 29, 2009, 2:29:00 PM

If we didn't worry about replying, how could we call ourselves your friend?

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They might not bleed the same color, but they bleed all the same!

~Rawwr-dragonofearth Mar 29, 2009, 2:51:36 PM

If you turn emo I'm slapping you. Also you're not dying fast, you're not living long enough.

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*77XxMelodyxX77 Mar 29, 2009, 5:01:33 PM

. . . . i wish i knew what to say or what to do to help you. i cant seem to make you happy no matter what i do...
Yes... that is why i broke up with him. and yes its fine. he is okay with it and im okay with it for now. . .
Even if i am the one making you miserable im here for you. . . as much as you will let me be.

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"The Function of art is to disturb. sience reassures."
~ George Braque

~Befu-Eiesutone Mar 29, 2009, 5:54:54 PM

but I don't want to be the reason...I want you to be happy...I'm trying my hardest to not be selfish...I have no right to be upset and make you two upset...

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"I am me, who are you supposed to be?"

"The fellow is either mad or he is composing verses."
"The bigger the smile, the sharper the knife."

Gay and damn proud of it!

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~Befu-Eiesutone Mar 29, 2009, 5:55:58 PM

*sigh* I guess you're right...I'm not worth worrying about tho...

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"I am me, who are you supposed to be?"

"The fellow is either mad or he is composing verses."
"The bigger the smile, the sharper the knife."

Gay and damn proud of it!

)O( Wicca )O(

*77XxMelodyxX77 Mar 29, 2009, 5:57:31 PM

its okay *huggles* we will deal with it.

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"The Function of art is to disturb. sience reassures."
~ George Braque

~Boomer343 Mar 29, 2009, 6:03:21 PM

Yes you are, your an interesting person

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They might not bleed the same color, but they bleed all the same!

~shane-13-ar Mar 29, 2009, 6:12:45 PM

-There's a little latin boy in drag crying on the stairs, ask the little latin boy in drag why he is crying.
-Little latin boy in drag! Why are you crying?!

I miss you! Now answer your phone or I shall send latin boys in drag after you.

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Being Emo is so passe...

~YaoiYuriFanGirl13 Mar 30, 2009, 7:07:51 AM

Please don't kill yourself over something like that,believe me,it does get better:learned the hard way:"Without darkness,pain and hurt.There cna be no Sunlight,happiness and love!" I believe that may be a quote from someone else,but I know I believe that.It's true.

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